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[Richie]

lol I'm not dazed come on well I have said already what my beliefs are. Thing is I never really speak about my relation with GOD and what my true beliefs are and how I practice them. I just have a one to one talk with GOD.

I guess because of the things that happened I lost hope in church and how people used to make fun of me because I used to sing in our choir and go to all Cathedrals around the country.

This is likely why I haven’t spoken openly and confidently about GOD to anyone accept those close. Anne so far is the only one I can speak openly and widely to, about everything. Which made me feel, how can I put it, where I was taken seriously.

I don't know, I’ve gotten used to keeping things to myself especially about my relationship with GOD. Could be due to fear that others I speak to don't believe, they will make fun or tell me there are no GOD and all of that. But anyway I have moved on, wasn't sure what you were referring to about staying on topic but I do now.

My relationship with GOD is a very deep, personal and private one. Only I know how deep and personal it is in my soul, I can feel it no one else can. Maybe I'm playing the safe guard by keeping it to myself and just to avoid any friction if their views are different and they tell me I'm in the wrong or whatever. End of the day each has their own way. Mine is in thought, prayer and action towards other people that I come across in my life.

[Richie]

haha it's cool the whole point and purpose in my post was just to share with you my vision and what happened with me and for others to read it. But I don't think I can drag on about that for ever 😛

[Richie]

JustAskin

I'm not doing anything much at the moment regarding scriptural learning or anything

karmarie

Thanks I wouldn't worry if someone says something that upsets me it doesn’t matter, they are entitled to their views and what they feel they need to say even if it isn't nice or called for. It's like “hey that's fine glad you expressed your feelings, but it won't affect me” as I said before people have thrown a lot at me but I'm still here  

[Richie]

True in most of what you say accept “I would go to hell?” noo, I never thought that never in my life. Every abuse from Primary to Secondary School to College to University has been hell and I had abuse and mistrust and distance from having good friends who use me and step on me, yes. BUT! I made dam sure that I will show that I can stand on my own feet, people can throw anything at me and I will still be on top.

I have spent over 6 years to get back on the ladder and to get the degree everyone in my entire family thought I would never get, I got my job I always dreamed of when so many denied me that or told me to give up and work with something else.
Trust me I've been torn in so many ways, hurt in so many levels that you will never understand.

That it's left me so isolated, alone with no hope, no one who cares as if the world doesn’t want me here. That's how much I’ve been through but GOD Kept me safe and my belief in him kept me going, made me show more love to my enemies, made me stay the person I always was.

And the vision I had, I've moved on from that now although at times it thinks about it I don't depend on it to keep my faith strong or anything else.

[Richie]

P.S It would be handy to add a Edit button so we can edit our post if we made mistakes and such 😉 (Mysterious) not (mysteries) Lol

[Richie]

Hey all it’s wonderful to hear from you all and all your experiences and your thoughts. I've been busy at work and just settling down after the Easter break and I almost forgot I posted here ops! I’m going to read over your posts again! But so far it's great to hear from you all. God does work in mysteries ways and oh my, he done it with me.

If I think back about everything that happened to me in school and leading up just before my experience, I know I would feel fed up, hurt and sad and just wondered why I am been pushed to my limits so much. But now after my experience I look back and it all makes sense! Everything had a purpose there was a reason to why certain things happened to me good and the bad.

Anne contacted me 2 days ago, and said Richard; the people are STILL talking about you and your vision! They are spreading your story to so many people! Right back to reading the posts 😛

[Richie]

Thanks guys… I do agree that reading the bible and talking to God directly is always the best thing to do but I'm always welcome to hear your advice too.

Back on my vision, what do you think of it? Have many members here had revelations or visions as well? I must admit, that I feel new, reborn. I feel that I died and now I am raised, it's a feeling inside my heart in my soul that I just feel God's love so much more than before.

I feel so happy, so alive! I feel that I have been in God's presence! With everything that happened with the church with the temptation, with my family been torn apart by my parents divorce by me making peace with them and my friends and now this revelation.

It seemed GOD is pleased with the life I have lead and that I stayed faithful to him and that no matter how vulnerable I was, out in the open away from his church and his family (community) I proved my worth, I proved my faith and my love to him.

My mom couldn't believe that I stood up at the Easter service and I spoke without any nerves, no hesitation. Put me up there any other day and I would stumble and stutter on my words with fear! That shows that I truly believed what I saw and how much I wanted to tell everyone!

I would like to hear from anyone if they have had similar experiences

[Richie]

Ed J and karmarie thanks so much for the welcome and your feedback. It has been hard… I was baptized in a parish church; I never was baptized in a Roman Catholic Church. I only attended after I left my parish hoping that I could feel spiritual there. I did but I didn't like the behaviour of the priest towards me as I have said in my last posts. It's good to hear from others like yourselves about your experiences and maybe you could point me in the right direction. But I guess like Anne has said to me, just fine the one that is right. Your never going to find it straight away.

[Richie]

My belief is GOD is the creator the Omega the one and only GOD who created all life, man in his image , the world, the stars, the heavens. He sent his son to die for us on the cross to burden all of humanities sins, so that we can be saved for those who believe in him. No one comes to the father but through Jesus.

He is the one and only one GOD that I love, that I give up my life for. He is the one GOD who I worship, I pray too, to ask for forgiveness for my sins so that I may be forgiven. With my own mouth and from the heart I confessed that Jesus is the Son of God that he died for our salvation.

[Richie]

you do make valid points.. I don't want to end up not going to church but I do as I need to get back in the community. Which is why I need to becareful in the churches I do find here and attend. Sometimes I feel I should contiune as I am as I do see a lot of problems on the news about the RRC all around.

I guess in the past or maybe even now, I'm careful where I tread and sometimes i feel that it's best to not do anything other than worship GOD and pray on my own, which I know GOD wouldn't want me to do that. I just lost hope in who to trust these days, you can never be sure who is true and who is false, that's how I feel most of the time. I just need to pray and ask GOD to guide me.

[Richie]

JustAskin

Thanks for your reply…

These events happened some many years ago with the money and the choir but nether less what is important is now and what I do next. I'm sure people here will have their opinions their views and that's fine with me. I'll always respect what others have to say even if I don't agree or I don't think in the same way.

I know the RCC or many churches are not perfect, they all have their faults some choose to attend and ignore some move on and try and find another church. But I respect that you don't attended church and for your reasons, as you say we are all not perfect.

But what I agree on is what Anne told me. “Richard the building isn't the church, the church is what is in here (your heart, your soul)” But it's God's place in bringing the community, God's people together to worship to pray to ask forgiveness.

So I'm sure that the RCC church which is near to my work might not be perfect or maybe it will be fine it won't stop me from attending ever again if want to leave, I'll find another.

I always pray in my head, but I guess this whole experience this Easter has, I wouldn’t say shaken me but opened my eyes. It is a calling that I should come back to the community, to church where you can find many people, new friends which is what I need since moving away to work.

[Richie]

Quote (Richie @ April 07 2010,00:15)

just if you’re wondering about the “tempted” I was tempted to take money. The voice in my head played a trick on me thinking it was right you will give it back sign it on paper that you will give it back, he owes you etc. He is very clever in tricking you to think it was right. When my mom found out I heard him laugh in my head I burst into tears. His next move as you read above was to make me feel that it was God's fault but as you know I proved my faith to GOD by turning around and standing next to GOD. I guess I pissed the devil off a lot.

I always had a feeling he was in me still and I made sure since I was tempted, to live a faithful and devoted life to GOD to give to others to repeat to myself that I love him and I believe in Christ. I guess that's what kept me safe for these many years until GOD thought the time had come to free my soul from this dark one still within me. And in doing so I have spread the word to many people! But I felt so honoured to do that I feel I should give up my main job and continue spreading this message.

[Richie]

Quote (JustAskin @ April 06 2010,09:11)

Richie, And you found and joined this forum. You need to fill the void left by the evil one very quickly with God's spiritual Word. Tell us what you believe about God and Christ, see who in this forum can guide you in your belief and see the differing views that you might consider. I don't know if you've read any current or previous posts but feel free to join in any thread you feel passionate about. Start gently and ask questions and we will put our views to you. Give it a go when you ready.

Thanks!

Last night I made sure that before I went to bed that I said a few prayers aloud (not in my head) and I'm going back to Church on Sunday which was the only thing that I should have done years ago. But that's the question I need to ask or maybe what you thoughts are….

Here we go then

Anne has told me that night before she removed the evil one that it wasn't your choir master or the priests or vicars telling you your prejudice or behaving in an insulting way in God's church by playing around with the Font water and other sinful ways, it was the Devil!!

He used them to make you feel unwelcome, to feel unholy in GOD's church. He made you leave and give up sinning (which I had done for 13 years) I moved to another Roman Catholic church, but there the priest behaved aggressively when I made a mistake on the registration form I filled out. He tore it up and threw the pieces on the floor and then said “DO IT AGAIN!!”

That was the moment I couldn't bare going to church anymore even thought I knew not all were like that. But the thing was I knew in my heart and soul that I still believe in GOD. It seemed that when I was tempted it made think it was right even though it was wrong. He made me almost rebel and blame god for the guilt I had.

Anne was pleased that I turned around and said “NO it was my fault I'm to blame I will not turn my back on GOD I'll go to hell for what I done but I won't turn on him! It seemed after all these times he was angry with me that he knew how strong within I was even though I wasn't back on God's Church.

So he attacked me in other ways by thought and fear with the friends I made and that filled me with hurt and pain because I had that in the past in school. It seemed the only way he could hurt me was by filing my head with these thoughts.

But because I made peace with them it seemed in many ways GOD lead me to Anne, he brought me down to visit my parents over Easter and to see Anne to finally bring me to Christ, to confess with my own mouth and that's when the dark one took a hold of me before he was gone. He knew his time was up.

So overall that's what I think has happened and I would like to know your thoughts. I'm going back to church as I said. There are so many around here and I will make myself go every Sunday or every other Sunday if possible.

[Richie]

Thanks for the welcome I stumbled across your site sometime ago and I tried to find it again (thanks to Google)

I've always tried to lead a good life I haven’t really done anything wrong and if I did I would always repent. I have always put myself 2nd and was always willing to help others and my friends even if I never got anything in return but it was a pleasure to help them in their trouble times.

Anne is a very spiritual person very God loving. I felt that she was the only one on a spiritual level where I could talk about how I felt about my love for God. At first after the prayer I felt exhausted and tired but now I feel so much love in me so much peace and well I can't describe it.

I do however have a few friends who either don't believe in God or just don't think there is a place such as hell and I have told them my story even if they don't want to believe it. I will never force them too, but Anne and the small church community told me that I should tell them, anyone that I talk to.

My mother spoke to her friend Anne that “Why would God show him hell he hasn't done anything wrong! He is so good so loving and caring why show him such an awful place?” and of course she explained it time again to her.

I feel closer to GOD than I could ever have imagined. I made peace with so many of my friends and all of my enemies that hurt me in my life so far. I always thought to myself “Why is it that so many people tell me of their visions, their experiences of seeing Jesus, GOD, Hell and Satan? Why not me? Is there a reason why he hasn't picked me but others?” But I do know now why he has.

I feel new as if I was born again! Good Friday I was shown this vision of Hell, Easter eve, Anne brought me to Christ and forced this demon/devil out of my soul which seemed to be lurking within me which I thought I got rid of years ago. Then Easter Day I went to the Easter Service to stand up and tell them of my vision and what I saw. It's been some weekend but I am so thankful Jesus has brought me closer to GOD and back to the community of his church.

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