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Vision of Hell – Jesus Christ Saved me
Rejection, being bullied and hurt drove Richard to become isolated. A vision of hell allowed him to come to a point where Richard could confess Jesus as Lord and be set free from the dark forces that had intruded into his life.
Isolated, unable to trust and being bullied
Throughout my whole life of 28 years I have been in much distress. I have been pushed to and beyond the boundaries and I became so isolated. I had much trouble making friends. I was unable to trust anyone, couldn’t experience love, nor did I feel that I belonged. In school, the bullying was constant with all the beatings and the teasing.
Forgiveness sets us free from hatred
Throughout eight years of Primary and Secondary school, the same group of people bullied me countless times. Thankfully I knew about Jesus and this helped me forgive those who hurt me. Doing this set me free from anger, hatred, bitterness and revenge that I held towards those who hurt me. All this helped me understand more the sacrifice Jesus made for our sins and how with the help of Jesus we can defeat evil without reverting to physical action or cursing. At the age of 18, I decided that I would work hard and at college I received the highest grades in my classes.
The terrible effect of a family breakdown
Satan circles all our lives trying to find our weak points, trying to make us stumble and sin. He knows that any of us can turn to Jesus and become a soldier for God and he sees us all as a huge threat. With God all things are possible. Satan focused on my family. He worked hard to cause my mom and dad to argue and to shout and to fight. My dad became selfish and thought only of himself and not of his children. My dad did not take me out and do things other fathers and sons usually do. The terrible and awful breakdown of our family is something none of us ever want to go through again.
The devil’s lies versus God’s truth
During this time, I was in such a vulnerable position that Satan played on this by tempting me to steal some money from my father’s money box. The temptation was so strong, as Satan presented me a mixture of truth and lies in order to get me to sin. “Take the money, he owes you pocket money for the past three weeks and he hasn’t given you anything. Just give it back next week.”
One time I refused and said to myself; “No! I’m stealing, this is wrong I won’t do it!” I heard God’s voice saying; “Well done! I’m so proud of you … you have done the right thing. Stealing isn’t the way.”
But the devil’s voice came back even stronger for the next few weeks, trying to make me steal the money again. I knew it was wrong and refused to listen but he kept on pushing me until I lost the will to fight back. My parents found out and I was confronted and the guilt that was left upon me ate through my soul. I heard the devil’s voice laughing at me for days on end and I could see his grinning face wherever I went.
I felt lost … felt there was no hope. Satan said to me; “Richard, you did a terrible thing, it’s time to move on … there is nothing you can do now. God made you feel guilty and so it is His fault.”
Life and death decision not to blame God
I realised that what was about to happen was a life and death situation. So I responded to Satan; “No! I am not going to blame God. It is not His fault! I will not blame God for making me feel guilty because I was the one who did this act. I will continue to go to church; I will bear this burden for the rest of my life. Even if God sends me to hell, I will never blame Him, and I will never hate Him!”
That was a life changing moment for me when I chose to stand with God and not to believe the lies of Satan. This I know fuelled Satan’s fury and he stayed very close, waiting for opportunities in which he could tempt me to sin against God.
Living in lust and addicted to pornography
The biggest sin which consumed my life was lust and my addiction to pornography. I did not know at all what I was doing. Jesus for good reason warns us; “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart” (Matthew 5:27-28).
Jesus knows actions start with thoughts and because He loves us, He does not want us to have our thoughts filled with adultery. Jesus wants only the best for us. Thoughts come from God, the devil or ourselves. We must “take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5).
So many in our society are entangled and trapped by lust and pornography. I pray they see that Jesus can set them free from this destructive obsession.
A time to forgive my parents
After the separation of my parents the time came for me when I got my dream job. I had to leave home from London to Edinburgh. Satan had one more plan to hurt me, and that was to bring my mom and dad together but in the process, he made sure that my mom and dad would neglect my sister and I and the suffering and pain we were in for what they put us through. I decided to stand up to my dad for his treatment towards my mom and to us, his children.
I took a few days off work to fly back to London to stay with my sister. I was so busy and had lots of deadlines to meet but I felt it was something I needed to do. I decided to confront my mom at her flat and said that I want to speak to dad on the phone. I gave him such a telling off for what he had done to me, my sister and my mom.
The most hurtful thing that I could ever hear from my own father was;
“I don’t care if you’re depressed and how you feel about me and mom but we are getting back together! You’re so selfish it’s always about you, you all the time!”
“Whether you or your sister, like it or not, me and your mom are back together, you have to accept it, so tough luck!”
My parents were the only people left who were close to me and that as children you depend and rely on when the world is against you but Satan turned them against me. As I moved into my new apartment in Edinburgh, my parents wanted to come up from London to help me move but my mom made sure that my dad would not get in my way or make contact with me. The day they were going to leave, my mother phoned me and said;
“Your dad would like to see you and say goodbye and it would be nice to thank him for helping you out by moving your stuff.”
I was very reluctant to meet him as I’m sure you can imagine. I somehow said;
“Ok I will”
But later I called my mom up again having second thoughts that I just can’t do it, I’m not ready to see him after all that has happened. At lunch time at work, the day my parents were going to go back home, God spoke to me and said;
“It is time to forgive them, to make peace with your dad and your mom for what has happened over the 3 to 4 years. Do not worry because I am with you! You cannot live like this forever in hatred and bitterness and you are ready to do this.”
So I met my parents outside a local store, and shook my father's hand for the first time and greeted him. We sat down at the cafe inside the store. My dad and I were very nervous and tense because it was such a difficult situation for us to be in after so much conflict that had happen between us. Later as I was about to leave to go back to work, he took both of my hands and said;
“Thank you so much, for coming to see me. I know it is difficult for you and it was such a brave thing you
done. Thank you again”I said;
“Thank you for moving my stuff to my new apartment”
He said;
“It was a pleasure to do it for you”
Our relationship is now back on track and stronger as ever. It was God who brought us back together. God knew I had to forgive my dad but I was not ready to do so. 6 months exactly went by and then God said I was ready even though I said no I’m not I can’t do this but God knew!
Months went by and my mom was worried about how I was feeling with meeting my dad for the first so she called me up and said;
“One of my friends at our college, she is a pastor and very spiritual. I told her about the situation and what you done and she said if she could phone you up and if it was ok?”
And I said;
“Yes it is fine”
The pastor told my mom and said;
“The Lord spoke to me and said not to call Richard until he says when I should phone him”
Days went by and then she phoned me up, we spoke for some time and then she wanted to meet me if I come down to London. I came down over Easter in April 2010 to meet her on the weekend.
My Spirit sent to Hell
During Easter week, I started to have rough nights and dream allot. This was unusual because I never dream and I always sleep straight through the night. The night before I was going to meet the pastor, I woke up early in the morning. I went back to sleep after a few minutes. I suddenly found myself in the middle of space and was I was taken across the universe at lightning speed. I did not have any control of where I could go; I just was pulled across space as if something was taking me somewhere. I was in awe, shock and amazement with the scale and size of the universe and how beautiful it looked. I felt so small as if I was a tiny spec of light in a vast black open space.
The stars shone brightly the galaxies came upon me so fast, it was truly breathtaking. The galaxy that I was near had a golden bright sun in the middle. The stars and clusters were in a ring like shape orbiting around the giant sun in the middle. Huge clutters of asteroids were flying around me. I started to speak out aloud describing what I could see as if I was trying to tell the people at home, back on earth what I could see. A huge asteroid came into view. It slowly drifted across but then as the asteroid moved way it revealed a planet which I had never seen before.
The planet was black and had a rusty surface, but the closer I got to it I could see the surface was hot and on fire. I was heading straight towards it. I knew what it was, I knew where I was heading but I didn’t tell myself this. But thinking to myself why, why am I going there! As I got closer I saw huge lava rock mounts like volcanoes poking out of the planets crust. Standing on top of them were people (humans) men and women but they appeared as black figures. They were burning and set on fire. I came closer to the ground there was this vast black lake as far as the eye could see.
Pockets of black lava rock islands were scattered around this black lake. Then I looked up into the sky and I saw, which looked at first like bats, but they were huge black winged demons. They were flying in the distance towards me. They were all set ablaze, the fire from their bodies lit up the black sky in red. I then started to hear and see people fall with me to this place. They were all screaming, shouting groaning in pain and agony. I have never heard anything so terrible in my life that I can still hear the cries and screams in my head right now. The moment my feet touched the ground, I was on one of the black rock islands.
I stood there and said to myself, “No matter what, I LOVE GOD and I will fight my way out of this”. Scorpions and huge lava worms were coming from the ground. The scorpions were stinging at my feet, and my legs but I couldn’t feel any pain. The lava worms were coming up from underground attacking the people all around me although I couldn’t see them. One of the lava worms came at me; I tried to kill it but had no weapons of any kind. I grabbed it with both hands. It was so big that I couldn’t keep it from attacking me. Its mouth opened and a smaller mouth came out which aimed towards my chest.
I woke up and sat at the edge of my bed, it took a few minutes for the vision that I saw to sink in before I knew that I was shown hell. I never felt so dead in my life, it was as if my soul was ripped out of my body but yet my flesh was alive. It was an unpleasant feeling of emptiness but I leant that I died with Jesus Christ in my sins, the day before Easter Sunday.
It was time to have Jesus revealed to me
After this experience a pastor took me out to have a light meal and to discuss my life and to talk about God. I told the pastor about the dream who said “Richard it is not a dream … it is a revelation! God loves you and He shared this vision of hell so others can see that hell does exist.” As our discussion continued, the pastor had one thing in mind for me and that was to bring me to Jesus Christ!
Body possessed by evil
As we prayed, while repeating the words confessing Jesus is Lord and that He rose from the dead, I felt a strong heat; a presence that I knew wasn’t good it was evil. It tried to make me laugh at my pastor, it tried to disrupt us. It used great force that it made me grin and smile at the pastor. I almost felt I had no control of what was happening. I used my hands to apply pressure to my face so that I could gain control and carryon repeating the words.
By confessing with my mouth, heart, and soul that I believe in Jesus, Satan was being tortured! He couldn’t bear these words and I lost all action and control over myself and I could feel the burning and heat inside of me get stronger.
Through me, Satan came out from within and took over my body and put both of my hands over my face screaming in pain and groaning and shouted at the pastor,
“Damn you! Damn you! … Leave me alone! … Leave me alone!!”
Satan was almost defeated; he wanted to fight so hard to keep a hold of me so that I couldn't confess that Jesus is Lord and that I believe in Him.
Satan is a defeated foe
The pastor banged on the table and shouted; “Richard!! Finish it!!” I had enough strength and finished my confession and suddenly I felt a huge force leave my body. I was out of breath, exhausted as if two powerful forces were pulling my soul. The pastor shouted; “Richard! Praise be to God! You are with Jesus, and you are saved!! Satan is defeated! Your name is now in the Book of Life!”
I will be forever thankful for what Jesus did for me
I have expressed countless times how thankful and in awe I am of Jesus for freeing me and showing me the truth. It is now my job to tell everyone of my experience. Through the blood of Jesus I am set free and I am no longer a slave to sin. I am renewed in my spirit. I am a new creation, which is in the likeness of God … created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.
Trying to be ‘good’ does not make you a Christian
Praise God, for showing me how far away I was from Him and how dead in sin I really was. He wanted me to cry out to Him so He could save me from my sins and wash me clean through the blood of His son. When I was younger I thought I was saved but I was lost because Jesus was not the Lord of my life. I was trying to live a ‘good life’ by following rules and this does not make you right with God. You must have your sins washed away by the blood of Jesus Christ or else you will still pay for these sins when you die.
Yes, we have some difficult times ahead of us, but I feel stronger as each day passes as I am prepared for the things to come upon this world.
Led by the Holy Spirit
Months went by and I was given a helper, the Holy Spirit. He has helped me grow spiritually to increa
se my relationship with God. I started to repent of my sins every night, I started to pray and then I had the urge, the determination and willingness to read the whole bible. I have tried to spread and share my testimony around to as many people as I can. I sent my testimony to my friends but some refused to listen or didn't want to go into the whole religion, God topic.I sent my testimony to Greg and Dave who run Changed Lives website. He has shared many testimonies with me including his own, his brother, aunt and an ex-student of his. I am now a prayer member of Changed Lives and every few weeks they get a prayer request and then they send it out to their members. We then pray for the people who are in need of God's help, love, comfort and healing.
God Bless,
Richard
Thank you Richard for sharing your story. I'm sure that it took a lot of guts to do so.
So thankful you are set free,
KathiDon't you think that if God would show everyone a vision like that then no one would go to hell, would they?
I wonder why God didn't warn Adam and Eve of such unimagineable torment forever and ever if they sinned?
HMMM?
Why doesn't he give everyone the same chance?If God takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked then why would he send someone to eternal torment without giving them the same chance you had to see it?
Just asking!
WJ
@ Lightenup, Thank you
Nooo it didn't take a lot of guts not really! I think it took more guts to speak openly in front of people twice but that is what Jesus does for you. All fear is gone because I would of run a mile if anyone asked me to stand up to give a speech or to talk in front of lots of people! God Bless
I know what you mean but you must remember, God loves ALL OF US. He has a plan to save those who WILL turn to Jesus Christ and even those who won't at the end. He tries and gives them many chances hoping they will. It's God's plan to bring people to him and to accept Jesus Christ into their lives so they may be forgiven for their sins and give their lives to God.
As I said in my testimony video, that I saw so many of people telling their stories about them seeing Hell or how they went to Heaven and how God saved them. God will save them in other ways, for example I had someone read my testimony on another site and he said
“By reading your testimony you have filled me with courage to face this life with Christ as my ROCK!!”
In whatever way God will save them, it took me 28 years before I was ready to give my life to Jesus. There is no other way around it. I had to go through those experiences to get to this point I am at now. Everyone is different and God will act accordingly to his plan and timing to save them.
God Bless
Quote (MasterRich @ May 27 2011,15:55) @WorshippingJesus I know what you mean but you must remember, God loves ALL OF US.
HiExactly! So why wouldn't an all loving God give everyone a chance to see the hell you saw and have a chance to repent before they are thrown in it for ever and ever?
Why didn't he warn Adam and Eve of such unimagineable pain and torment forever if they eat that fruit?
What is the wages of sin? Is it “Eternal Torment” in pain that is so hideous and horrible to even imagine?
WJ
Quote (MasterRich @ May 27 2011,15:55) He tries and gives them many chances hoping they will.
Really! Do you think that anyone would not repent and be saved if they saw what you saw?Is there anyone that has ever seen what you have seen and yet said no to God or to salvation? If not then all he has to do is just show them what you seen, right?
WJ
Really! Do you think that anyone would not repent and be saved if they saw what you saw?
no I'm doubt anyone who, if they saw what I saw would not repent. But not everyone is shown Hell by God so that you will repent of your sins. God knows exactly how the person next to you will be saved and if it's not by showing him/her Hell then it would be in another way like, God coming to them in a dream or Jesus in most cases from what I've read.
Read Greg's father's aunt's testimony here, she didn't have any dream or vision at all to accept Jesus Christ.
http://changinglives.au.com/item-by….od.html
If God meant for certain people to see Hell not only to tell others of what they saw but so that it would bring to the Jesus then that's the way God will do it. For me that was the case, for someone else it may not be.
Hi Richard:)
Sorry to hear of your bullying. Bullying is something Iv always hated seeing, and some of my best friends I made were the victims of bullying.
But you got through it! And your all grown up now. Praise God!
And God knows all you went through.
I was also a victim of bullying at school. The reason is because I sided with another victim of bullying, so they turned on me.
And I know what it's like for family (parents) to fight. It makes us withdraw even more. It did for me. And I also went through a stage where my parents abandoned me and went overseas to live. I was only 16. I had no other family. They came back though, eventually. They are ok now. And we love each other so much, things have really changed.
And stealing… I used to shoplift as a teenager… it's something i would never do now, haven't in something like 20 years. Even though at times we were poor and hungry.
I dont have much time now to address the rest of your post but I will very soon.
I'll just quickly say that God is not a bully, God is love. And there is no fear in love.
I will share my vision with you maybe later.
Thank-you for sharing Richard.
Quote (MasterRich @ May 27 2011,17:11) If God meant for certain people to see Hell not only to tell others of what they saw but so that it would bring to the Jesus then that's the way God will do it. For me that was the case, for someone else it may not be.
Hi MasterRichOK, I can accept that, but if the all loving God desires all to be saved and all he has to do is show someone hell to believe in and accept Jesus and be saved, then why wouldn't he?
I am not trying to be difficult but is God a respector of persons who chooses who goes to hell and who doesn't?
Blessings WJ
Quote (shimmer @ May 28 2011,09:15) Hi Richard:) Sorry to hear of your bullying. Bullying is something Iv always hated seeing, and some of my best friends I made were the victims of bullying.
But you got through it! And your all grown up now. Praise God!
And God knows all you went through.
I was also a victim of bullying at school. The reason is because I sided with another victim of bullying, so they turned on me.
And I know what it's like for family (parents) to fight. It makes us withdraw even more. It did for me. And I also went through a stage where my parents abandoned me and went overseas to live. I was only 16. I had no other family. They came back though, eventually. They are ok now. And we love each other so much, things have really changed.
And stealing… I used to shoplift as a teenager… it's something i would never do now, haven't in something like 20 years. Even though at times we were poor and hungry.
I dont have much time now to address the rest of your post but I will very soon.
I'll just quickly say that God is not a bully, God is love. And there is no fear in love.
I will share my vision with you maybe later.
Thank-you for sharing Richard.
Hi shimmer,Thank you for your words of encouragement. Yes the bullying was terrible; it lasted 8 years nonstop. But yes I got through it with the Help of God. I’m sorry to hear you too suffered from bullying but well done for standing with the person that was being bullied. Not many would do that; they would just look on and walk on as if they didn’t see anything or not to get involved.
Sorry about the problems you also had to go through with your family. I can’t imagine how that must of been like to have your parents abandoned you and then went overseas at just 16
But I’m glad they came back and things are better! Looking forward to reading about your vision and thank you for sharing some of your past life’s troubles and how you overcame them with the help of God
God Bless!
Hi Richard.
Quote I know what you mean but you must remember, God loves ALL OF US. He has a plan to save those who WILL turn to Jesus Christ and even those who won't at the end. Do you think God will eventually save everyone?
I'm just curious what you think will happen to those you saw in 'hell'.
Quote Everyone is different and God will act accordingly to his plan and timing to save them. I do agree.
I don't believe in an eternal place of suffering, I don't believe it's in Gods nature to do that, or to allow that to continue, because God IS Love.
But, once, I was arguing with my (then) 15 year old Christian Son, about eternal torment and how much I disagreed with it.
He brought me back an internet printout of a guy who claimed to have died and gone to hell.
I analyzed it and wrote notes all over it with scripture to prove the guy wrong.
But then something troubled my conscience. I actually felt scared. As I was out doing something God showed me to be careful WHO I debate over this.
We are all different. If belief in this actually brings people to God, then, who am I to interfere.
So I have learnt WHO to debate with and who not to.My vision… I might tell you about it in the next post.
Richard,
This is my vision.
It was about… four years ago.
It was a time when I was having visions, usually things to do with prophecy, things that were to come.
This one night, I went to bed. I was lying there, not asleep though.
I heard breaking glass and I saw two people, men, breaking in the back window. I saw them approaching the bedroom, and I saw them burst through the door and come at me. I felt so fearful. I knew it…they…were evil and they would hurt me, kill me.
Suddenly I was lifted up. taken up from above by wings. I was in the wings and I knew it was God. I was completely overwhelmed with love. It was the most amazing love I have ever felt. I will never forget it. I'm reminded of it often when I pray and it makes me cry, with love…. Even writing it I'm crying…
There are no words possible to explain it.
I remember thinking “what are the word for this?”
I was so safe.
I was put back down.
Back into the bed, And I sat up and I cried so much.
Thats the 'vision' I had that I will never forget. And I cant wait to go back.
It wasn't a vision though. It was real.
If God showed everyone the truth now, most would convert.
But why would they convert?Not because they love God, but because of selfishness. To preserve themselves.
Perhaps then, it would only be a matter of time for another rebellion because it is only the love of God that makes a person do God's will for all eternity.God allows those who do not love him to perish for good reason.
He destroys the wicked as it is written many times.What is the point in a person that doesn't love God to live forever with God?
No point. It is his mercy when he destroys them in the second death.“And HELL was thrown into the Lake of Fire, this is the second death.”
HELL is destroyed in the same fire that destroys the old creation.
And I beheld a new heaven and a new Earth, without sin. Only those who love God will be there.
Praise God! Thank you for sharing, truly blessed to be able to feel God's love!
Thanks t8 for clearing this up, God knows the heart of men and woman and if they truly love and seek God with all their heart he will save them but to use them to fulfil God's purpose. My pastor spoke to me last night when she invited me over and said;
“God knew that you were seeking God even after all the things you went through and he has chosen you to do God's work and be a light in your work place, to be a light in your family and to reach out to people to tell them of your story and to pray. He has given you a helper the Spirit of Truth and in your prayers and in the words that you have written to other Christians. The words that come out of your mouth, the words you have written is not from you, not man written but from the Holy Spirit! Can’t you see the Holy Spirit is in you!? Can’t you see his working with you?!”
Our duty is to bare good fruit! To know and learn more about Jesus Christ to be just like him in every way. That is our job and that is what we are called to do, which is what my pastor told me to do and said you are doing this.
I have put a link to my testimony video from YouTube if anyone would like to watch it on YouTube, save it or share it around Thank you and God Bless You!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRsW3j31H_IQuote (WorshippingJesus @ May 28 2011,01:01) Don't you think that if God would show everyone a vision like that then no one would go to hell, would they? I wonder why God didn't warn Adam and Eve of such unimagineable torment forever and ever if they sinned?…………..
WJ
WJ,That one hit me man, I never thought about it that way.
I mean you got a point, the only warning that God had for Adam and Eve is that they would die, but nothing about a eternal torment, and presumably the bible never states that Adam and Eve the first of our kind went to hell eternally because of thier sin.If you ever read the online book of adam, its intresting, though I don think its real.
much love,
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