Nick, that drive you have to criticize people is not of God. It is of the old fallen nature. The new birth allows us to participate in divine nature. The new birth means we are able to love God and others with love being the motivating factor for what we do, God has opened the door for you, but it is up to you to walk through. Become the man of God that God meant you to be. Time is too short to let pride ruin your chances.